The Sounds of Anger 2/12/2007

So, being angry as I am takes alot of focus, and it may distract me from other things… such as how I sound or am acting.  With that in mind, I’d like to make fun of yet another victim… only this time, it’s me.
The other day, I was driving… which, in Spokane, causes me to become quite angry.  Somehow, people brains turn into gelatin while they drive and a chemical reaction happens in my brain which fills me to the brim with hate.  Well on this particular day, as I was talking out loud to other drivers, my stereo failed to play any music for whatever reason.  Well, with no music, the only thing I could hear was myself and my angry audible suggestions to other drivers.  I discovered something that day… I sound like a total douche when I’m yelling at other drivers.  I mean, really, a total cock.  I wanted to punch myself for sounding so dumb.
First off… why do I have to be so loud?  I’m in a car by myself with the windows up… no matter how loud I am, nobody will ever hear me.  Sometimes I even politely tell some other driver what they did wrong, such as “Hey, you should use your blinker” or “Perhaps you should go faster.”  What the hell?  That’s not even out of anger, I’m just talking to some random driver like they can hear me.  It makes me wonder… maybe I’m going nuts.  Maybe I think they can hear me and it makes me feel like I’ve helped them drive better.  Somehow, I’m everyones personal driving instructor, out to make driving more pleasurable for everyone.  If so, I fucking suck at that job cause everyone still is terrbile at driving.
So next time you yell at a driver, turn down your radio then try it again… you too probably sound like a total douche.